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yaoi_addict07
10 January 2012 @ 05:02 pm
Sometimes the sheer amount of what I have lost overwhelms me. I read a Facebook post or listen to a song, remember the beauty and awe of being where I was, and I almost cry. I never cry, so the feeling is even worse... knowing that if I were normal, I'd be in tears, but unable to actually do so. I just *miss* so badly. If I had anything that could replace any of it, it would be bearable... but I have a shit apartment, awkward relationships with my roommates, a school and major that I hate, a complete lack of religion, and a family that is growing further apart every day. My escape, the internet, is just sucking the life even further out of me. Every so often I remember that there are things about where I am now that are good, but then they're swamped by the lazy, slovenly obesity, the complete self-centeredness, the entitlement, the sheer uncomprehending wastefulness of America. God, I hate it here. and now I'm just whinging.

Still, my therapist says that I should be creating, rather than just consuming... it's not enough to read incessantly, I should be producing something of my own. i've tried my hand at fiction, and I'm Shite, but I can whine like the best of them. So I shall, and try to get closer to being able to write down the things in my head that are actually worth voicing.

I'm sorry, internets. this is pathetic.
 
 
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yaoi_addict07
29 March 2011 @ 10:46 pm
ok, so after watching This video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IsPFDzAGb4A&feature=autoplay&list=QL&index=3&playnext=8&shuffle=300775

I have no idea how anyone could think Adam Lambert is anything other than a top. I mean, seriously... wow. and damn. damn and wow.
 
 
yaoi_addict07
15 September 2009 @ 11:35 pm
*running commentary to episode 2, season 1 of the tv show Star Trek*

ok, first off? 'The final frontier:' what do they mean, final frontier? there can be no 'final' frontier... what would it be a frontier to? I will admit, as frontiers go, it's pretty penultimate...

'to boldly go where no man has gone before...'
and yet they keep running into humans... how odd!

interesting, isn't it, how they have fifties show tunes in space...

this one isn't so bad... overly dramatic posturing, ridiculously obvious foreshadowing and closeups, the usual... but overall, not too shabby...

oh, gotta love the highlighting of the eyes for dramatic effect...

and of course the delighfully melodramatic and bittersweet ending... classic. just classic.
 
 
yaoi_addict07
04 February 2007 @ 08:25 pm
Ok, roosterbox... I don't know if you'll read this, or if I scared you off... I'm sure that my comment on your post was a little off... I'd probably have run screaming. oh well, if you never read this, it's not the end of the world.

first off, my question... just to get it out in the air.
I'm a BIG fan of slash fanfiction... my major fandoms are harry potter, gundam wing, and occasionally smallville or others, depending on my mood. right now I'm on a gundam wing spree. I recently remembered reading a fic, half-done, if that. it's really interesting. very AU, set in some other universe where the g-boys aren't g-boys, they're just people. except they have talents, I think they're called. certain people in that world have talents, mirroring one of the 5 (yes, I know... there are normally 4...) elements. our boys are some of them. Hee-chan's 'spirit', duo's 'water', I think, trowa's 'earth', quat's 'air', and 'fei is 'fire'. At the start of the fic, 'fei-'fei is an inn boy in some remote village. his father died there, trying to save the last of their clan. he's trying to get out of there, when the other four show up, part of a "War-something". I can't remember the name. they recognise him as the last part of their little group, and take him with them when they leave. wuffie's incredibly OOc.
That was kinda convoluted. I hope it made sense. it's a really good story, and my attempts at a summary aren't doing it justice.

anyway, the question is, have you heard of/read that fic? or know where I could properly search for it? I really want to read it again, and it's driving me mad.


Ok, with that out of the way... a little about myself, I'm a senior in high school, like yourself (if your profile is to be believed). I currently live in Germany, but am probably going to move back to the States in late June, early July. I'm american, but have only spent 2 years of my life there. um, I'm 18, can't drive... I don't really know what else to say. I think that's enough, for now...


Hopefully my strange comment on you LJ didn't freak you out. here's hoping!
 
 
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yaoi_addict07
14 January 2007 @ 11:28 am
will anyone ever read this? it's kinda strange to think that I am writing here, on the internet, where anyone could read it, and it's more hidden than if I wrote in a locked journal that I hid under my pillow.
 
 
 
yaoi_addict07
13 January 2007 @ 11:48 pm
...  
it occurs to me how incredibly blessed I am. I've been to Rome, Paris, Madrid, Vienna, Islamabad, Dubai, New York, Chicago, and Washington DC, and am going to London in the spring... I've listened to Sigur Ros while standing on a cliff overlooking the French Mediterranean... I've been to more countries than some americans know the name of... I went to Rome for a week for senior trip... I've been to a Death Cab concert, and spoken to Elizabeth Elliot... I've discussed literature with some of the best minds in the world (in my opinion)... I have an amazing family... I've smoked apple flavored tobacco from a Turkish hookah with my sister and brother... I've ridden in open wagons and stretch limos, on bicycles and motorbikes... I have a network of friends that would put an international diplomat to shame... I've tasted the best food France, Germany, Pakistan, America, Spain, and a whole lot of other countries has to offer... I've climbed the Karakorums and skiid in the Alps... I go to switzerland for school retreat... I have the best friends I could ask for, and the best friends I couldn't... I have enough, and more than enough, stuff... I have good health... I've travelled more in 18 years than most people do in their whole lives...I have music, and what more could I need?





why do I complain? the list could go on... but somehow I always dwell on what I don't have, the bad I've done, the evil I live in...





odd how God doesn't come into my list of blessings... I don't know if that's because I don't consider him a blessing, or because I take him for granted. and, honestly? I don't know which is worse.



I'm kinda surprised I'm actually going to post this. hopefully not too many people actually read this. I've already chickened out by posting this here instead of on my xanga. there people might actually read it, here I'm safe. I live such a duel life... it's hard not to hate who I am, in one of my lifes. I have my "real" life, where I'm the perfect, innocent little christian daughter, going off to college next year, ready to become an english teacher for unfortunates in India. then there's my inside life, where I've dumped God, I know far too much about things that stretch the definition of perversion, I counsel others on the road I've gone too far down. They say God doesn't give up. could have fooled me. or maybe he's a hypocrite, and really is waiting for me to do all the work. maybe I'm just jaded. how did I get this bad? I've never even kissed a guy, at least not when I was old enough to know what it meant. that's another story, though. i won't get into my past right now. yet I know more about sex than some married couples. I can talk intelligently about hentai, yaoi, fanfiction, and all things perverted. not exactly something I'm going to brag to my friends about, though.



ach, enough. I'm waxing maudlin, and I should quit.


reading over this, it occurs that i sound rich and spoiled... you'd never guess I'm the daughter of a pastor, who has to beg the rich, christian, do-gooders in the states to get enough to live on. ah well, c'est la vie.
 
 
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yaoi_addict07
04 January 2007 @ 05:59 pm
'Ello there. I'm actually updating... 0_0 woooaaah...


anywho, I got this idea for a fanfic story, and I'm going to post my ideas here. it'll probably be slash, as that's my fandom, but... it's VERY loosely based off the song Wishmaster, by Nightwish. what i'm basically doing is taking each one of the titles in the chorus and creating/borrowing a character to fit it. there is a plotline, but that would be the majority of the tale. so yeah. the chorus to the song goes:
Master!
Apprentice!
Heartborn, 7th Seeker
Warrior!
Disciple!
In me, the Wishmaster

so I'm putting a character for each, except the wishmaster. he's special! here's what I got so far:
master: Raistlin Majere (liable to change, so...)
apprentice: Dalamar (see above)
Heartborn: original character, Ash Wendon.
7th Seeker: Harry Potter (of course. who else?)
Warrior: either King Arthur or Beowulf.
Disciple: ??? don't have anyone for this yet. if anyone reads this, and tey/you have a suggestion, please, do tell.


I think that's all, for now. ta!
sujoy
 
 
yaoi_addict07
23 September 2006 @ 05:12 pm
right. a livejournal. don't really know what I'm doing here, or who is going to read this. maybe i should use this to vent my frustration at life... like a good little emo chick. tche, yeah right. mostly i guess this will be an outlet for my pathetic raving fangirl-ness. i come from a 'traditional' family, and my... interest in yaoi is discouraged. so as long as my family does't find out about my livejournal, i guess i can deal. so.
the obligatory list of favorite fandoms/mangas/animes:
-harry potter (yes, i'm ashamed, but f*** it if hp doesn't have some fwicked fanfiction...)
-sukisho/sukisyo
-gravitation
-fujimi orchestra
-fushigi yuugi
-mars
-hana kimi
-fma

i'm probably forgetting some... oh well. it's not that important.
sayonara
 
 
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